About Me...

I was a hopeless drunk.

I drank for a number of reasons.  My marriage was a pile of abusive shit, I worked too many hours and I decided to exchange one addiction (food) with another (alcohol.)  Last spring I moved out of the family house and stayed with my brother.  It was an alcoholics wet dream.  I could drink to my hearts content in a safe place with another person performing the same task.

I have an eight year old daughter whom I love dearly and leaving was very hard for me.  But staying in that situation was unhealthy for all of us.

After years of drinking to excess I decided that I was sick and tired of being sick and tired. I made a decision that I needed to at least get my addiction evaluated and determine a course of action.  The evaluation stated that I needed inpatient treatment for addiction and it was recommended that I not return to the place I was living because it would not be a safe place to maintain a sober lifestyle.

I lived for two weeks with a friend and dried out.  I was manic because I did not have the tools to deal with my addiction.  Once in treatment I began the slow process of recovery that I have maintained through today.

During my hospitalization my friends moved me into a two bedroom apartment and have been completely supportive of my decision to get help.

I am not cured of this disease.  Alcoholism is chronic, progressive and fatal if left untreated.  Working a program is crucial to my recovery.  I understand that.  It is not the days of sobriety that I have behind me that is important.  It is the sobriety that I have today.  By the grace of God I woke up sober and by that same grace I will go to bed sober.

I am a grateful alcoholic who continues to do the Next Right Thing.